Halfway there

I received my 4th chemo treatment this afternoon and I can finally say I am halfway through my treatments. Four more to go! This treatment was delayed again. I was supposed to have this done last Wednesday but my counts were low again. To say I was upset would have been an understatement. I was angry having been told it would be delayed, I was angry at myself for not looking after myself better, and I was just angry at the world. I was frustrated at the fact my treatments were once again delayed another week. Once I allowed myself all these emotions I sat back and asked myself what went wrong and how could I take control of the situation again. I went back to regular exercising 3-4 times a week so it wasn't that. I could probably use more rest and the main factor was the fact I haven't been eating properly. I did some research about foods which build the immune system and had quite the awakening. I wasn't providing my body a fighting chance because I wasn't eating the right foods. So...in my eyes the Universe is once again giving me a smack to the back of my head and saying, "hey, looking after yourself means the whole package and that includes eating right!" I said to my mother-in-law today that eating right now means a healthy body in the future. I have to make changes now to prevent this from happening again. I know I do not eat enough fruits and vegetables and perhaps I just needed a rude awakening to get me to realize how important it is to look after myself. I've concentrated so much on my mental well being that I tend to forget about the body. I realize that now. I've learned a lesson these past few days. Message received.

Stay tuned, next treatment is a different type of chemo drug and is 3 hours in length. More info to follow soon.